Tonight, I’m gonna write letters to each and everyone I love.Things in my heart that I dare not say.
Time flies. Much have settled. But sometimes it still pains me to see you so affected by your ex. Sometimes I wish I could do more for you. Sometimes I wish that you have a kid with me so that you are not so upset when the ex does crazy stuff using the kids on you because you can focus on new hope. I wish that I could have a happy family with you so that our lives are more balanced. Wish I could be a good wife to you and that you really smile with your heart so warm each time you look at me because you are truly happy.
Im upset with you. You left me. Not only that you made no efforts in visiting your grandson but you can go on holidays with your wife. Why is it that you can’t meet me without her. Why can’t i have a father daughter time with you. It has been so long, that now if i were to meet you alone, i think it is awkward. I just wish you good health. don’t know what else to say. it’s become too superficial.
You were not there for me when I had a divorce. no emotional support. I had no one i could really confide in, all i did was to write. why papa had to do this. and you are just so cool as ever. not cold. but cool. nondescript. i would say. and why can’t you help me with dylan so that I could go out and work like other moms. you make me feel that it’s always a business transaction with you, it’s never enough for you. You’ve never praised me once ever. no word of affirmation from you ever.
Mama loves you to the moon and back. Im sorry I’m so strict with you all the time, I’m just trying to make sure your fundamentals and habits are right when you are still young. so that you can grow up to be a fine young man. It’s really tiring on me you know when you don’t behave though I know you have such a sweet heart. I hope you read more, it’s the only way you can learn by yourself and let the knowledge retain even longer. I really hope you grow up to be a lucky, motivated and healthy young man.