Tonight made me aware of a really important point. I must never forget how horrible sometimes people are. The problem or blessing of mine is that I forgive and forget too easily. I guess it’s a survival instinct, if i had remember ALL of my horrible childhood, It would have been too miserable. If I had remembered ALL of my horrible parts of marriage, I wouldn’t have waited so long.
If tonight I had remembered how horrible he sleeps, I wouldn’t have allowed him to sleep in my room.
It doesn’t mean that I don’t love these people, but it means that I have to be more self respectful to love myself FIRST before I love others, I cannot always give give give give till like i am so miserable.